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Hello.I use the screen name of slaveallan68, I also answer to allan, and I presume I will have to answer to being called slave someday. I discover my submissive side very early in life playing any game that would find me tied up in some fashion. In my later years, I participated in a few charity slave auctions. It was a thrill being forced, ordered to spend the day wearing some crazy outfit. Some of them I felt naked in. It was arousing to see groups of people gather around me to watch my owner make her slave do a task. It was embarrassing being made to dance around or made to do push up and sit up. It was also during those years that I discovered I like nipple pinching and being gaged. Those experiences are a couple of other adventures to write about some other time. I didn't watch porn much. I found it boring. When I did watch one I spent more time fast forwarding to the next scene. I was more interested in the build-up to the sex than the actual deed itself. But one evening in my twenties a buddy of mine shows up with a video he rented. Well in this video there were 3 scenes that prove I liked BDSM. One scene had two women standing with hands tied overhead. Clad in full body latex suits. They were face to face, attached together at the waist with a belt. A man enters with scissors and proceeds to cut out holes in the women latex. At the breast, the butt cheeks and vagina. The scene played out with the women having a vibrator in them and having their nipples pinched and butt spanked. This is the first time I am exposed to actual BDSM. I found myself wishing I was one of the women. I also saw my first ever hogtie in another scene. Before that, I had not even heard of the practice. You could say I was hooked. But at the time there weren't that many videos like that. But when I happen to see a bondage scene I always envision me being one of the actresses or just plain out reversing the roll and the man was the tied- up and naked. one.
Sadly my adult life is rather very vanilla. I meet someone, got married. Did the think? The typical Mayberry sort of life. I tried introducing my kink to my wife, but she was not at all receptive to the idea. So I dropped it and lived my life suppressing my fetish. Only playing out my fantasies in my daydreams late at night. There I have put myself in every kind of scene imaginable. Then in 2009 on the day the King of Pop passed away, my wife had her hysterectomy. I have not had sex since then. I also have not been unfaithful and had sex with another woman, including cyber too. I I indulge my needs by joining sites like this one and spending time with the palm sisters. Come to think of it, I should be good at teased and denial. I have been denied for nine years already :) Two years ago as I surfed the net searching FemDom. I stumbled upon the word hypnodomme. So I started researching the subject a lot more. Try out various MP3s where ever I could find them. Through those searches, I found various sites like this one. On one of them I met the woman that I was eventually collared to as an LDR slave. We parted in the spring, her real-life dominatrix career was taking her on another path. We remain friends with me occasionally doing a guest post for her blog. So I returned to my quest to become a slave, which in turn landed me on this doorstep. I was once asked to describe what I would like to accomplish as a slave. The easy answer would be the best slave possible. But slaves don't have the luxury of the easy answer, do they? So here is what I hope to accomplish a long distance online slave..
1: I want to train to be a perfect cyber slave where I easily respond to the suggestion and orders that are given to me.
2: To train how to easily allow myself to slip into slave mode.
3: Learn how not to be nervous or too excited when submitting to being a subject.
4: To enhance my imagination to vividly and quickly see the scene that my owner has built for me.
5: Respond quickly to the environment my mistress has put me in
6: To remember that as a slave my mistress put me in this scene for her pleasure, as well as mine.
7: I must be respectable and obedient to the mistress and to the situation she puts me in
8: To allow myself to actually to be bound using smart phone controlled locks
9: To feel the sting of the whip, crop or paddle as it impacts my skin
10: How to make my body respond to nipple clamps clipped on my nipples or cock.
11: Train to respond to teasing and denial and the feeling of an endless edging
12:: To enjoy the experience and the feeling of any apparatus I am subjected to
13: Enjoy the clothing I may be made to wear and not to try and cover myself when ordered to be naked
14: Train to except that I might be ordered into chastity and that my orgasm belongs to mistress
15: Practice how to plead to mistress for permission to orgasm
16: Train to know I am a slave and that I am owned by a mistress and her orders are final
17: Remember that I am a slave an I have to obey every order I am given, right up to the edge of my limits
18: To except that will be expected to submit myself to being trained with app controlled toys.
19: To keep in mind that even though this is a cyber relationship. The scene mistress puts me in is real, and that me being a slave is real
20: Except my punishment without protest
21: I do not have a paid membership, so if your serious slavealjam at outlook dot com is where to find me. I look forward to saying "As you wish Mistress."
That pretty well sums up how I wish to show my submission as someone hypnotic slave. Hypnosis is just one of the things I would like to do here. Meeting other people interested in hypnosis and BDSM is very important too. After so many years of suppressing and remaining silent about my submissive side, it is a pleasure to finally be able to talk with other people about it. So if you like this profile please send me a message. I look forward to meeting you.
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Mijn Ideale Persoon:
I am hoping to meet someone over 30. Has a dominant personally. A person who wants to have an LDR slave. Somebody who would like to present me as her slave in chatroom. A person who has an interest in making her slave work for her. I like the idea of being torture by my Ower using devices on myself that is controlled by my mistress smartphone anywhere in the world. I also hope to find some one who knows how to set an LDR slave straight for his mis deeds.
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